15

K is like a nuclear bomb, making things so complicated when they are so simple, at least A is not like him, she moves slowly, takes her time to show those little teeth when smiling, when she runs she stops to make sure you’re still watching her. When she talks she tries her best to imitate words the way the grown-ups use. I wish her dad was the same but he’s a ball full of energy, he is fun but he’s more than I asked. I need something to cool him down for this New Year.
That’s what I want from Santa.
Merry Christmas everyone
It’s time to meet his family

14

The New Year is coming and I need resolutions for the New Year. K wants to get married and apparently I’m the bride and I’m not sure that’s what I want. I really love him and he is special and he is wearing the ring I gave him and so do I but marriage is too much and I’m not ready. The rings were signs to show others there is someone else, that’s it.
I have to clear my mind before taking another step but he is too fast, too lively, he’s just too much for my pretty dull life, he’s exciting but he brings lots of changes all along that I really don’t want. I prefer a boring steady life that living on the edge and looking at a bomb that is gonna explode any second. Jesus please help me

13

Happy Birthday K, you’re a year older now!

12

I’m tired of never ending visits to his psychiatrist and he always surprises me with new things to know about my partner. I really love K and he was honest from day one but the things the doc are telling me is freaking me out and I’m not sure I can deal with it. He needs protection and he’s been through too much but I’m not the right person for him. He’s a nice person but I really don’t like the facts about him I may deal later. I wish I knew all these before exchanging the rings, I have this feeling that I promised something I’m not sure I can cope. God it’s too much you’re asking me.

11

Sometimes life is not as smooth as you want and recently my life was exactly that way.
K is acting very weird and annoying, too annoying that someone as patient as me can get really pissed off, I don’t know what to do!