lingering abhorrence

Everything smelled of him, his shampoo, his cologne, his very being, I left the window open so fresh air could bring new smells inside.

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The talk was dull, one way, direct to the point with random pauses highlighting the facts either too high to be reached or too ambitious to be achieved, however I blabbered on and on and he surprisingly listened intently, only opening his mouth a few times as if to protest then the moves were followed by hard bites on his lower lip to keep the silence. With all the needs and expectations thoroughly described, it was easier to see defeat in those warm brown eyes. “How long would it take until he bursts into tears, throw a tantrum and accuse me of being unfair?”

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I so much hate it when you translate all your thoughts and emotions into words then press publish and everything is gone except some stupid draft saved a long time ago with a few sentences in it!

I’m not going to rewrite it again.

I’m emotionally dried!

how I feel

This is not the kind of music I usually listen to but this song really describes how I’ve felt the last few days

Paranoid about being gay?

This is so irritating, I like the therapist and there are plenty of things I agree with her, however I’m constantly thinking of my little kitty left at home.

He worries and bugs me to no end, but that’s all the motivation I need to live my life.

I have come to the point in my life that I’m as comfortable as I could ever be with my sexuality and apparently I’m ready to meet other guys.

She, the therapist, is right, I haven’t really explored my sexuality with any other guy beside K. The question is “Do I really need to do so?”

The last few nights I drank to sleep and to keep my hands full I tried as many bars as I could, meeting new guys and mixing with new people. I even found a hot drinking buddy.

Surely the hangover is not something you want to wake up with every morning but it makes me numb enough to forget the little kitty at home with his tail between his legs and waiting to be touched. The last time we talked he sounded depressed to me and his voice was too hoarse and tired I could easily visualize the bags under his eyes. God knows how much I want to hold him and rock him until we both fall asleep.

Friday will be the last therapy session of the four and I’m not going to talk to him again until I get home.

The Banana Test Only For You

There is a very, very tall coconut tree and there are 4 animals,

A Lion ,
A Chimp ,
A Giraffe ,
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A Squirrel .
They decide to compete to see who is the fastest

to get a banana off the tree.

Who do you guess will win?

Your answer will reflect your personality.

So think carefully . . ..

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If your answer is:

Lion = you’re dull.

Chimpanzee = you’re dense.

Giraffe = you’re a complete moron.

Squirrel = you’re hopeless.

A COCONUT TREE DOESN’T HAVE BANANAS.

Obviously you’re stressed and overworked.
You should take some time off and relax!

My Personality test