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During the last few days many different things happened good enough to write about but i kept telling myself it was something to be done after dinner and you know “after dinner ” never came.
Probably it’d be better to start with today b/c it was a bright nice day to begin another wonderful day…. sorry wrong!
I woke up pretty early but to my surprise K was up way earlier and had made the breakfast too which was something unusual and fishy but I didn’t pay much attention. he was very lively, chatty and energetic that is very much like him so without paying any attention I sent him to work.
Still looked like a fine day so I cleaned the house a bit, fed A and dressed her to meet some of her little friends.
With all the cleaning finished, we left home to face a new working day, not to mention it was all very early but it’s Alaska so we have very long days.
By 9 o’clock I was pretty done with the chopping and preparing stuff for another cooking marathon. 9 o’clock and it had stared to pass very slowly not to mention that my everyday routine starts after 9.30.
I had paid too much attention washing the carrots so i could draw every single line on them, the kitchen was very quiet and it was getting really annoying so I thought a little talk with my bundle of energy would brighten things up.
I called his cellphone several times but there came no answer, yet nothing to worry about b/c he usually leaves it silent in his backpack. 15 minutes later and I was on my way home because my favorite asshole had headed home an hour ago or that was all his boss said.
I was very rude to him now that I think, though he was very concerned about K and had sent him home even asking me whether his medication was working or not.
Now it’s almost 11.30,I’m watching K sleeping soundly on the bed holding “wooly” * and pillow very tight. He’s been very restless recently so no wonder he didn’t hear me coming, poor K sometimes he’s very mean to himself.
I have no idea what happened to him in the last 3 hours and al lI can do is to wait and let him wake up and explain.
I really want to give him a big hug b/c he looks so vulnerable and innocent that makes my heart ache.
So today was one fine day that went wrong.

footnote:
1. “Wooly” is one fluffy ugly toy dog K takes with him everywhere specially when he is upset. it looks very ancient so it must be something from his childhood.
2. Within 6 days , I’ll be 34 years old. Time passes very quickly. I was thinking of posting some personal rants like last year.

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At last K is coming home and I’m planning a long holiday (just me), letting him look after A and enjoy the parenthood.

I had little  sleep last night cleaning and getting prepared and I have to confess I missed K more than he would ever imagine and it was very hard not to ask him to come back asap but on his own terms and when he was ready.

I wanted to upload some pictures too but no matter how hard I tried it gave me different errors, so let it be some other time.

Time to make breakfast and then head to the airport.

I CANT WAIT TO SEE HIM IN FLESH!

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It seems I can’t write more than 1 post per month.

I have to thank all those nice guys still checking here though it is not updated often. I want to blog more but I don’t have much time to do so.

Alaska is as wonderful as ever with its wild unpredictable nature and summer isn’t far away.

At last I made my mind to accompany K on his trip and it wasn’t an easy decision when he so much insists on moving somewhere else like gypsies.

Anyhow, K misses A more than ever and they spend several hours on the phone giving reports and makes me wonder who’s the kid and who’s the parent,that’s K so I can’t say anything.

There are many things I need to blog about,however, I have to start packing before K put all his toys in his backpack and leaves no place for his clothes.

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I know I haven’t written anything for a while b/c I was trying to remain busy with this and that.

Easter came and went as expected and instead of going to the church and enjoying myself I spent most of my time looking after the sick bunny who got pretty better lately.

I realized a few things like how precious it is to have a kid or how wonderful it is to be healthy.

Baby A has been out of town for nearly 10 days now and we are starting to notice how lonely and dull life can become without her b/c she is a female version of her daddy that means she is a ball of energy and you have no chance to rest when she’s around.

Anyway I thought these little kids were really cute with her eggs so I post it here as well.

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It’s time to party though the fun ended sooner than I expected.

Just after 11:30 this morning, with the sun shining on a bitterly cold Front Street, Lance Mackey crossed the finish line of the Iditarod Trail Sled Dog Race to cement his place in history as the manager of the first sled-dog dynasty of the new millennium. read more

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Love really starts after you gotten together.

The more intimately you come to know each other, the more you’re at the mercy of every casual remark that comes out of their mouth. No matter how much you love them, they’ll never truly be 100% yours.

But the problem is….

I want to have him all to myself and this is selfish and scary.

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If he’s tired, I feel worse specially when he tries to foist his stupid ideas on me or uses lame excuses for his unacceptable childish behavior.

Being depressed and not being in the mood of getting physically close is something I can cope, but hurting himself ,avoiding me, ignoring his responsibilities and making up the lame word “ungay” is too much for any sane human I suppose.

One of these days he has to face the consequences.

Ungay: trying hard to look as masculine as possible, attracting opposite sex attention, avoiding any physical contact with the same sex including shaking hands and embraces and claiming there must be a way to live normal. Two guys living together is nonsense and wrong. (K’s dictionary)

And yet he spends most of his time with a bunch of teenagers and twinks doing stupid unhealthy stuff, if he goes bungee jumping and dies, that won’t surprise me.

 

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We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

Something a little romantic to the love of my love, the one and the only.

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Recalling the big day, happy 1st anniversary K!

Years will pass and I wonder if he ever grows up!